NO VACATION for me. Okay lang. December 29, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : Industrial Design, Life, Pakistan, Uncategorized , add a commentMasaya. Malungkot. Nakakatamad. Masaya ulet. Nakakaantok. Masaya ulet… Umiikot lang dito. Grabeh.
“In a year, we only need thirty days of vacation.” (O_o) ugh…
P.S. Aw man, Bhutto was murdered. SO the same as to how Ninoy died… I tell you, they have a habit of killing women. Why do men do this to us, eh? Why?… (Hehe)…
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I’m sorry if I’m tired of everything. December 27, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : Uncategorized , add a comment(WARNING: This blog entry contains sad expressions of loneliness that may influence the current nature of the reader. Your strong self-happiness is adviced.)
I’m sorry if I’m sad after Christmas. I didn’t expect this to happen… And I don’t want to be sad after Christmas…
Right now I feel like I don’t want to do anything anymore. I don’t want to be in bands anymore, I don’t want to do Industrial Design anymore, I don’t want to go out anymore, I don’t want to talk to people anymore. I just want to stay home and do GEN stuff in the movement.
I don’t want to be in bands - I just feel really uncomfortable with the people and the fact that my studies are paying the price. Especially the people. I have a problem with Rensi. He gave me gifts and this shirt and he’s giving me loads of stuff and it makes me feel uncomfortable, again. In Elena Crisis, I feel a bit weird towards Reena because she says something but she doesn’t mean it. And well… I think it’s just me. Bottom line is, I’m feeling tired and unhappy about things which makes my batteries run dry. Sigh…
I don’t want to talk to people anymore - Coz most of the people I encounter are all the same and they make me feel sad and they irritate me so much that they’re SO ’six-feet-under’ hopeless and they’re SO THE SAME (like I’m not the same, but they’re not like me, but they don’t need to be like me, but they tick me off a lot…) And like, I want to be with Aliens instead coz maybe they’d be more sensible to talk with. But then when I’d get to talk with aliens then maybe they’ll kill me instead and all of mankind coz they were destined to obliterate the earth and suck up all our juicy flesh and blood for their energy source, TOTAL DOMINATION of ALIEN KIND (eew, I’m so geeky right now…)
I just want to NOT be sad coz I’ll just be like the others… Yeah the SAME PEOPLE. Or maybe I just have to embrace this sadness that I’m feeling right now. I have to embrace this fear that I’m experiencing: This fear that 2008 is coming. I just have to think of the people in Iraq who are dying every second because they’re in the Warzone. Yeah, I’ll just think of that so I’d feel a little bit more fortunate… That my problems and my pathetic melancholy sentiments are pretty much NOTHING compared to others who are in the brink of death.
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Hey… I actually feel better after eating a pizza that had gone a bit cold and after talking to my old ballerina-friend Sara and after finishing up on this blog. I hope you guys didn’t become sad just by reading this, but I hope you become sympathetic instead.
Coz I-am-just-undergoing-a-phase-in-my-life-right-now. Thank-you-very-much.
P.S. But I still want to talk to aliens
P.P.S. No I want to take a trip to Gaea… Like… Now. Take me there now… ( -_-)zzZ
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Can’t Sleep Again. December 26, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : Uncategorized , add a commentSo I listen to Jethro Tull instead…
Wow, 26 na. 5 days to go tapos 2008 na. Totoo kaya na pag dumating nga ang 2008 ay mababago na talaga lahat: Buhay ko, kapalaran ko, mga tao, lahat ? Kung sa bagay, nasa saakin lang naman iyon e kung gusto kong magbago akung gugustuhin ko na maganda ang magiging 2008 ko.
Pero (wala lang) parang sa tingin ko ay may mararamdaman akong kakaiba kapag magka-countdown na kaming lahat para sa 2008. Ako… May mararamdamang ‘kakaiba’ kapag magto-2008 na.
2008…
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My Christmas Eve “Pensieri” December 24, 2007
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PUTSCH PRODUCTION POST #1 December 21, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : PUTSCH PRODUCTION, bands, event, gig, invite, music , add a comment
maaaring i-klik ang larawan para makita ito ng mas malaki.
Kung may time kayo, punta kayo sa unang production ng PUTSCH. Para ito sa mga bandang mahilig sa tugtugan pati na rin sa tipiran! Kaya’t tara na!
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What makes Elena Hitomi a useless girlfriend? December 21, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : Uncategorized , add a commentShe is
1. Moody - you will always see her staring at a wall or staring elsewhere. Her mind usually (and, well, almost all of the time) flies like she is in another world. Mind you that if she stares at you, it is divided to 10% : 90% ; 10% staring at you; 90% she’s wandering in wonderland.
2. Impatient - she gets ticked off by what she thinks is an error. Gets irritated easily and gets turned off right away.
3. Paranoid - this is a big factor. She gets paranoid over things that haven’t gone to pass or gets paranoid by people’s intentions. The sad thing is that 99.9% of the situations are false! Meaning, she just gets paranoid over nothing. Sad.
4. Tells the truth ‘all the time’ - in a way that she doesn’t know what a “White Lie” is! Sometimes, she has to know when to speak up and to shut up.
5. Talks REALLY loud - because for her, speaking in a moderate tone is actually too loud for others. What a shame.
6. Laughs like ‘hell” - And literally. She laughs so loud, you’ll question her gender. The sad thing is that, she remembers the funny thought in her head and keeps on laughing for a couple more minutes. It’s tiring.
More on “What makes Elena Hitomi a useless girlfriend” next time so watch out for the next post! Good day!
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HÃRÛVHENN’S TALE December 21, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : Lyrics, St.John (band) , add a commentYou cannot see the front if you yourself cry. Adhere to the lexis you once told me before. You are a specter now…
An old age is dawning. A new life awaits us. If we could alter ourselves, reform and make amends. The inner crisis comes from the man who weakens himself. The inner crisis comes, either way out…
Time will ever cease to end and all will die away. Will love be a burden, moreover, a strength to freedom. Time will ever cease to find its way back To the source again. Reform is coming on…
Slowly…
You cannot see through the lines if you yourself hide. Adhere to the lexis, to the lexis. Do you love it when you keep on whispering in my ear? A specter… You have become…
An old age is dawning. A new life awaits us. If we could alter ourselves, reform and make amends. For the inner crisis comes from the man who weakens himself. The inner crisis comes from the man who weakens himself…
Time will ever cease to end and all will die away. Will love be a burden, moreover, a strength to freedom. Time will ever cease to find its way back To the source again. Destiny is coming on…
 Time will ever cease to end and all will die away. Will love be a burden, moreover, a strength to freedom. Time will ever cease to find its way back To the greatest source of all. Destiny is taking over.
Reform will come and, for what’s worth in all, this seed’ll grow and tower our greatest fears. Die to ourselves and live again…
Die to yourself now.
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Why play games with FEAR ? December 18, 2007
Posted by elenahitomi in : Uncategorized , add a commentWhy play games with fear…
if…
Fear is not ‘playable’ in the first place? .
I still receive texts and I still get a bit baffled by it. Although, the emotional tension between myself and I has lessened (thank God…)
Currently sleepy… I still have to work on unfinished plates, do a research (which was supposed to be for next year. I just CAN’T seem to decypher as to why we have to do it for tomorrow.)
No… But really, I’m good. Oh I sure want to attend SIMBANG GABI but I doubt it if I’d ever comply by the seemingly early wake-up call. Nooooooo. Oh wait a minute… I don’t need to wake up coz I won’t be sleeping again. Or will be sleeping at around five in the morning… Again…
Lastly, just wanted to say that: A man who loves me should talk to me like a real man and not as a ghost.
Coz ghosts just tend to scare-off people.
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Chiara Lubich December 15, 2007
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The inspiring spark: God is Love
It is precisely the discovery of God as Love that opened up a new horizon and marked the decisive choice of direction made not only in the life of Chiara Lubich but in the lives of millions of people.
During World War II, in Trent, under the bombings that caused immense destruction, Chiara, then in her early twenties, against a background of hatred and violence, made the discovery of God who is Love, the only ideal that no bomb could destroy. It was a powerful experience, “stronger than the bombs that were falling on Trent”, which Chiara immediately communicated to her closest friends. Their lives changed radically. They declared that, should they be killed, they wished to have only one inscription carved on their tomb: “And we have believed in love”.
This discovery opened up a new horizon and became the goal of their life: to help bring about the fulfillment of Jesus’ priestly prayer: “that all may be one”, his plan of unity for the human family.
The Gospel put into practice in every dimension of human life
Chiara immediately sensed that something was coming to life that would reach the very ends of the earth and that would bring light and renewal to society.
She recognized in this rediscovery of the Gospel not only its enormous spiritual import, but also that it had the capability of bringing about the most powerful social revolution ever. The first testing ground: in the early 40s among the needy in the most disadvantaged neighborhoods of Trent. She and her companions shared their few possessions with them. They experienced the truth of the Gospel promises: “give and it will be given to you”, “ask and you shall receive”. In the midst of the hardships of wartime, an unexpected amount of food, clothing and medicine came into their hands so that they could take care of the needs of many.
the original texts can be found here.
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Coffee talk with Rency & Nelson December 15, 2007
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haha hanep sa title. Anyway.
I had a really interesting and fun time with these guys (sayag wala si Randy, laging may date hahaha) Anyway right now I was supposed to sleep but then I woke up and I couldn’t sleep anymore, so you know what happens, I go to the computer… Hehehe
Ayon NELSON nakakatakot ka naman mag-advice. Natakot ako kanina kasi, well yeah, nalaman mo yung kondisyon ko. But I’m glad I got to share with you guys my hanging dilemma. All along I have been searching for closure from my ex to realize na kinlose na pala ni beck, nung June pa! I didn’t realize it until now. WAPOW. Like, I knew what I was supposed to do, but then I was just too timid to do it, coz I was still “longing” for him. Pero tama ka, suportahan ko nalang siya diba? Grabeh… Napaisip nanaman tuluy ako.
Pero yun nga tsong… You can’t blame me if I feel these sorta things, coz it’s normal! And I don’t expect that these feelings that I feel will disintegrate at an instant. It all needs time and ‘experience’, ika mo nga.
Hays. Buhay oo… Pero yun na nga lang diba?
Kasi dati pinapahirapan ko pa kasi sarili ko by thinking too much on what he was feeling towards me, tapos nagpapaapekto pa ako sa mga kowts na natatanngap ko from macmac and others. Tapos nagpa apekto pa ako nung nagparamdam siya muli nung nagusap kami sa telepono. Ayun so dapat hindi ko na lang din kelangan isipin mashado diba tutal wala na kame and he already has his goals and his living his life for himself and ‘career building’ ika mo nga. So suportahan ko nalang siya.
Ngayon after nung coffee talk naten, mejo nawala na yung “longing” ko at mejo hindi na ako naaapektuhan sa mga kowts na yon kasi para ke pa diba? There’s no use dwelling on those kinds of stuff in the first place. At kung masaya nga ako na single, panindigan ko na ren. Haha, andami kong nasabe.
Tas saken naman, ayon, uulitin ko lang, at panindigan ko na ren. Dapat mas makabubuti talaga saken na wag na munang pumasok sa isang serious relationship at papasukin ko na lang iyon pag nag graduate na ako or magtatrabaho at higit sa lahat, kung wala na akong hesitations. Kasi sa ngayon mali talaga at emotionally immature pa ako sa mga ganoong mga bagay. Hindi ko pa kaya ang ganoong responsibility. Sad to say but true. 21 and still learning.
Kaya Nelson, pabayaan ninyo ako kung ganito ang status ko. I mean, you’ve experienced that diba? Let me experience mine hahahaha.
Magpapasko na ! Celebrate tayow ! Woohoo!
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